A rainbow baby is a baby born after a miscarriage, still birth, or neonatal loss. It is called a “rainbow” because it is something bright and beautiful following something dark and painful.
When my husband and I first met, I had just gotten out of a toxic relationship of 3 years. I wasn’t looking for anything serious, and neither was he, but it was almost as if the universe had called us together. We both had a bit of baggage and trust issues, and yet we were still drawn to each other. Our sweet Kane was a huge surprise. We were scared because we hadn’t been together long, but we were committed to each other; committed to our baby. There were fights and bad times, but through it all we loved each other.
In the days before…
On February 10, 2014 I went in for what I assumed would be like any other prenatal appointment. I had been dilated to 2 centimeters since 28 weeks and was so proud that my body had been able to keep my baby from coming too early. I was convinced that she was going to be a preemie and there was nothing I could do about it. Yet, here I was, 38 weeks pregnant. And waiting.